POETRY BY MICHAEL PAIN

 

CREEDOLOGY

BLACK AND WHITE
The Power in your hands

March of the pawns
Searching
ASSIMILATION





Black and White

Black and white,
Blur the line,
Shades of gray.
What I see is not so simple.
No purity in good and evil;
Only combinations and variations.
A necessary lie and a harmful truth.

The Power in your hands

You hold my life in your hands.
You have all the power.
Need I trust you with my life?
Too much power in the hands of a man.

Too much power without my control.
Not just a tool
Power, pain, fear and death.
All in your hands.
Too easy to take a life.
Too much power in the hands of a stranger.

You feel like a big man, don't you?
You feel the power surge through you.
No longer a man, now a god.
Take my life with a flick of your finger.

 

March of the pawns

You are blind
Standing in a line
Following the fools before you
I warned you
But you follow anyway

 

Searching

Where’s the source of my inspiration?
Where’s the voice of my generation?
What’s my course and where’s my destination?
Do you hear my cry of desperation?

 

ASSIMILATION

There you are.
You're not hard to find.
You're the walking billboard sign.
Decked out in Benjamin worthy Nikes
and logos that can be seen at 100 paces.
I know your brand names before I see your faces.

(chant)
Be like me
Be like me
Be like me
Be like me
Be like me.

I know you
I've seen your face before
I've seen a million just like you
I know your game,
Your claim to fame,
You are conformity,
Anti-diversity
You are a lie.
Your motto
Be like me or die!

Your dream of simplicity

One plan

One mind

One opinion

One truth

I am not you
The conformist,
The extremist,
The follower.
I am the holdout
The solo act,
The one that does not bow to the masses.

 

 

NEUROSYNAPTIX

Genesis
MM&I
Under the bed
the wall
On Paper
Salvation







Genesis

I am a god.
I create a world for your eyes and ears.
I create, and you criticize.
I can immerse you in a place as familiar as your own home, or as alien as a distant world.
I can show you your dreams and your nightmares.
I can show you the past, the present or the future.
I can choose your hero and plot for your villain.
I can control every element, the love, and the hate; who lives and who dies.

I am the omnipotent poet who suffers for his art.
Some drown in their own madness or take in the toxins.
I sit alone in the darkness, observing the chaos and madness of the world.
And thus the madness and the chaos give way to creation.

This is genesis.
The story unfolds before you.
Triumph and tragedy running hand in hand.
Now you see your fantasy and fear.
All is propaganda, but you believe it to be true.
What you experience is a masterpiece, a collaboration of art, technology and the human
mind.
It is my world, and it is my creation.

M. M. & I

Don't you think that I won't!
Don't you think that I don't!
Don't you think anything!
You know nothing!
You have been deceived
I don't fit inside your box
I am more than you could ever perceive
I am the original until the day I die
The one and only
Me, myself and I

Under the bed

I want to live life to the fullest
Seize the day
But how can I, when I'm surrounded by these things.
These little dirty things
Things in dark places
Hidden, forgotten, forgiven, but not out of sight.

I still find them.
The light it shines, revealing the filth under the bed.

Another sleepless night .
I can hear it and see it.
It crawls up from beneath.
Out of the shadows,
A reminder of the dirty little things in dark places, hidden away, forgotten, forgiven deep
down inside my mind.

 

THE WALL

No turning back
I'm going in
Head first
No fear
No regret
Hit the nail on the head
Must move forward
No standing still
No exceptions
All or nothing
No expectations
Believe what I say
I'm going all the way

I'm frozen…I can't move…my heart races…I cannot overcome the barrier.

On Paper

This won't make it go away
This won't make it stop
Ink on paper won't break the wall down
Help me forget
Thoughts off my brain
Now reside on paper
Temporary storage for things that bring fear
I am stronger than this
I know my enemy
It is fate; my antagonist for life
How much more can I take?
Too much fear
It sucks the life out of me.
I cannot win…
The ink will dry

Salvation

Free me of this burden
Free me of these lies
Free me of responsibility
Free me of these eyes
Free me of this mind
Free me of this day
I'll do it this way,
I'll do away…

I'll take the easy way out
I know what life is all about
We sing of life and love and fear and pain
Things will never change
Things will always be the same

We sing of life and love and fear and pain
Things will never change
Things will always be the same
The weakling does a-way- with these things
(you're the reason why)
So put a bullet through the lie

Free me of this love
Free me of this fear
Free me of the future, the unknown, so near

Free me of your hate
Free me of your lies
Free me of the ignorance hidden behind your eyes

I'll take the easy way out
(You'll be sorry then…)
I know what life is all about
(You'll be sorry when…)
We sing of life and love and fear and pain
Things will never change
Things will always be the same

We sing of life and love and fear and pain
Things will never change
Things will always be the same
The weakling does a-way- with these things
(you are the reason why)
So put a bullet through the lie


Free me of this burden
Free me of these lies
Free me of responsibility
Free me of these eyes
Free me of this mind
Free me of this day
I'll do it this way…
I'll do away…with it all

Free me of this love
Free me of this fear
Free me of the future, the unknown, so near

Free me of your hate
Free me of your lies
Free me of the ignorance hidden behind your eyes

I'll take the easy way out

I'll escape the burden
I'll escape these lies
I'll escape responsibility
I'll escape these eyes
I'll escape this mind
I'll escape this day
I'll leave it all behind

You'll be sorry then…
You'll be sorry when…
you're the reason why!
you're the reason why!
you're the reason why!

you're- the- rea-son- why!

 

 

RELIGIOSITY

Reflections
THE CRY
MAN'SGOD
Society's Disease
Divine Author
THE EMPIRE
THE LIES THAT LIE
Father
Blind Obedience
Altercation















Reflections

I often stare and wonder,
Is that you?
Those millions of twinkling lights in the night sky?
Who are you?
Where are you?
Can you hear me?
Do you know me?
Do you know any of us?
Do any of us really know you?
Do we know anything about you?
If we really don't know you,
Why do we trust you and love you?
Is it only a reflection of our own insecurity?
Are all those twinkling lights up there in the night sky only the reflections of the eyes of those that are staring up and wondering who you are?

THE CRY

Here I am,
doubting your existence, questioning your omnipotence.
To you they plead their case,
to all you refuse to show your face,
in the eyes of the believers, the congregation,
I am condemned to hell, deserved damnation.

Because I choose to think freely,
because I do not listen to the cries of the holy man.

MAN'SGOD

One little word
For all the answers
One little word
For all your needs
One little word
For all the answers
One little word
Get on your knees.

We are God
Ignorance of omnipotence
We are God
Ignorance of humanity

We don't care about what we can't see.
We don't mind the contradiction,
We don't mind the hypocrisy.

One little word
For all the answers
One little word
For all your needs
One little word
For all the answers
One little word
Get on your knees.

We are God
Our creation, the deity
We are God
Bow down to humanity
We are God
Bow down to me

Society's Disease

Illusion, delusion, confusion,
Society's disease puts me on my knees.
I beg; I plead, give me all I need.
They tell me
See the light
I see the light
They say I see the light.
But what I see is not white.

Illusion, delusion, confusion, society's disease,
Can't you see I'm on my knees?
I beg, I plead, you have all you need.
So for the truth, I will now fight!
Now open your eyes
And see the light.

See life for what it is.
Let the world around you astound you.
I beg; I plead; all you need,
Step back, open your eyes and see how we're alive.
That is all.
The great myth must take a fall.

Divine Author

Your book reeks of humanity
Each page soiled with the blood, sweat and ignorance of man
Best seller of the laity
Man authors divinity
Your god cannot bleed, so he must burn
How many must die before we learn?

THE EMPIRE

This is the revolution and humanities evolution beyond the plague.
Open your eyes and march into the future.
Stand tall on this new ground.
A place purged of ancient ritual and dogma.

This is the Atheist Empire.

THE LIES THAT LIE

I see the hate and fear in your eyes
If only you would take a look and realize the lies that lie behind your eyes.
the holder of the scripture is the breeder of hate.
He fills you with the misinformation, falsification And fabrication.
you take the bait.
The hate spreads lIke a virus.
A neurological disease
I am now a demon to the world.
If only you would take A look and realize the lies that lie behind your faithful eyes.

 

Father

Went to your house the other day.
Your children said you had gone away,
a millennia or two ago.
“He will be back soon”, they say.
I decided to stay.

Your house is kept clean,
The blood spilled by your children cannot be seen.

Every day now they tell me of your way,
Great deeds done in your day.
They know alot about their father,
That they never really knew.
You never bothered to tell them the truth about your mother, the whore.
They really have no idea what you have in store,
For the world that is waiting at your door.

 

Blind obedience (for an insecure god)

Believe I am what I say I am simply because I say,
“I am”!
Do not question me.
Never ask me why!
Only...believe that I love you.
And believe that I care.
Believe that I know what’s best for you.
And believe that I’m there.

Now, Bow down to me,
Die for me,
Devote your life to me,
Do all that you do- for me,
But never question me,
Never ask me why!
Demand no proof!
Believe that I would never hurt you.
And that your blindness is a virtue.
Believe I am what I say I am simply because I say,
“I am”!

 

ALTERCATION

Down on your knees you piece of shit
Down!
Now!
Bow before me fucker
I bet you feel strong now, don't you?
Prey
Prey to your God
Who is going to save you?
There's nobody here
Where is your savior?
Where is your almighty God in your time of need?
Let him strike me down here, where I stand!

Here that?
Nothing!
He must think you need this
Doesn't he love his loyal servant?
He doesn't love you
His power won't stop me
Look at me old man
Fucking look at me
Right here, in my face
In the eyes
Who has the power?
Who?
That's right, me!
It's right here in my hand
This shit is real; this is real mother fucking power
This isn't in your head
You can feel this
Feel that?
That's cold hard steel against your forehead
You did this to me!
You made me do it!
Do you see what you have done to me?
Do you see what your lies have done?
Don't you know hate breeds violence?
Your hate is going to fucking kill you

Where is your fucking God?
Where is he?
Tell me?
Isn't he going to save you?
Will he stop me from pulling the trigger?
Where is he?
Fucker!
There is no God
There is only me!
And I am not a killer

Mr. Robertson, get the fuck out of my sight.

 

 

 

SEXSATION

She
Residue

Sexual Being

H.A.H.
Ripe
Dear Love







She

She needs to hear the lies, laying there, by his side
She's beautiful then, when he tells her she's his
She want's to think she's worthy, but he worries, the delusion runs both ways

She tells him that he's a handsome man
That, he doesn't understand
He doesn't see a handsome man, holding her hand
What he sees are lies, laying there, side by side

 

R e s i d u e

We all use
Should we be abused?
Is it a fact?
Or am I confused?
I wish I could see
what it is you feel for me.

For now
Lets just sweat a little longer.
And let the blood flow a little longer.
I know you want to- cum with me again

Two become one
Pleasure and pain mixed with guilt
Feel the sweat
And the blood flow

Deep breath

Lets sweat a little longer.
And let the blood flow a little longer.
Soon you're going to- cum with me again

Two continue as one
Eyes closed
Beads of sweat
Blood begins to boil

Deep breath

Soon you're going to...
I know you want to...
You know we have to...

A scream in the dark
Fluids combine
combustion
chemical reaction

release
Relax
collapse
Fall down

Deep breath

It's all over
Eyes now open
Once again I'm all alone
The confusion returns

And only the residue remains.

Sexual Being

I need this
Something deep down inside tells me
It speaks of desire
Just a glimpse of your nakedness becomes bliss
The thought of your touch is ecstasy
To touch you is to stand at the gates of heaven
Deep down desire guides me
I am helpless to overcome

 

H.A.H.
(revised)

I

I did it all for you
I did everything you asked me to
And asked nothing in return,
in hope that you would learn.

I did it all for you
I gave in to you
I gave it all to you
You took my offerings and ran away
Not caring why I felt this way

Another day filled with nothing,
Before you there was something
It is obvious now
It was never meant to be,
But you didn't have to care so little
About what you did to me.

A plaything for a day is not my way, but now,
A moment that would last would be all I would ask
You have reduced me to this
You left me no last kiss
Only thoughts of wasted time
and what I just nearly missed.

II

Long time no see, but now you are beneath me!
This is the way you want it to be
and this is only about me!
Will it be pain or pleasure?
We will see!

You owe this to me!
You want this to be!
That is why you came to see me!
That is why you lay beneath me!

No more running
I won't let you hurt me
I won't let you win this time

No more games to play!
No more bonds to break!
No more trust to take!

Now you give in to me!
Now you give it all to me!
Now you consume me!
Now you lay beneath me!
Now you make this easy!

III

The moment that would last has past.
Come and gone, long before the memory was settled.
I am left wanting more but the arrangements made remain unpaid.
Once again you ran away,
Not remembering the other day
and not caring how I feel today!
Going back on your word as if the promises were never heard.
I am left with so many unanswered questions

 

Ripe

I can still taste you, my forbidden fruit
Not quite ripened before devoured
If only all fruit could be this fresh, this sweet
One more couldn’t hurt!
They say it’s too soon to pick,
but I say it’s at it’s sweetest now.
Why not indulge in it’s premature delights?
Oh the taste of that sweet, sacred nectar!

 

Dear Love,

I missed you so much today. I longed for your honest embrace and your passionate kiss. I don’t know how much longer I can deal with that vacant place beside me. Waking one more mourning in this half-empty bed is torment. I want so badly to wake up and find you warmly nestled in my arms. I hope you will be there soon. I cannot wait to see your smile and your eyes and your hair and your lips and your skin and smell your eloquent scent. I will drown my senses in your beauty and never once take your presence for granted. As you awaken I will brush the hair from your face and gently kiss your forehead then your lips. Then consumed by all the honesty and passion in the world I will proclaim my love for you.
I cannot wait another day, another hour or another second to be with you. It is a burning necessity. I need you. You make me whole. I am so incomplete without you. You make me perfect. You are everything I have ever longed for. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

 

 

 

 

 

 

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